alright, maybe the best time to blog ISNT a couple of days before an exam... especially if one hasn't blogged for a while... but hang on, it does admittedly give me a minor thrill to see my words on the internet, free for all to see (well "all" meaning those ppl who mistakenly stumble upon this blog)
so what's there to talk about... its been 6 months since i last blogged. but it has been 6 very lifechanging months. i've grown (put on 3kgs =P) inside and out... i've learnt about life (sometimes, through my own bloody mindedness the hard way)... ive stumbled and fallen (physically and spiritually)... i've had to pick myself up and keep running... i've failed a driving test without getting into the car... i've been living....
you see, i could talk about all these things, but then this post would definitely be too long... especially before an exam. and besides... i'll save the truly funny occurrences(and yes there have been many) for one day when i'm chatting up someone at a bar =P... or failing that a future blog.
but the one thing i have truly realised in this last 6 months is what matters in life. to love God, and to trust Him. to obey Him when He prompts. to seek His presence... and to live life realising who he made me to be, and living the way he made me and wants me to live. that is a life i pray i'll live.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Thursday, March 23, 2006
has been a while since i blogged...
yeah many many different things have happened since i last blogged. some good, some bad... some just funny, and some, i dont know.
ive just realised im on the halfway point of my uni studies. what am i doing? =) am i going anywhere? is this what i want to do?
yeah... i realised this year that i really do love studying law. i wouldnt study anything else in the world. i guess i do get caught up in just the issues, the conflicts between different ideas, i get caught up in the personal stories (some legal cases read like a script from the bold and the beautiful, others read like...hansard hahaha)
im just getting to grips with the fact that im going to have to work in 3 yrs time... find a job (that normally comes first)... then do all the adult things like bills and tax returns... adoiiii
so freaky, yet so exhilirating. i think thats prob why im just working better in general this year (not perfect yet)... i realised why im doing it. i love it. i know im meant to be here.
Nic
yeah many many different things have happened since i last blogged. some good, some bad... some just funny, and some, i dont know.
ive just realised im on the halfway point of my uni studies. what am i doing? =) am i going anywhere? is this what i want to do?
yeah... i realised this year that i really do love studying law. i wouldnt study anything else in the world. i guess i do get caught up in just the issues, the conflicts between different ideas, i get caught up in the personal stories (some legal cases read like a script from the bold and the beautiful, others read like...hansard hahaha)
im just getting to grips with the fact that im going to have to work in 3 yrs time... find a job (that normally comes first)... then do all the adult things like bills and tax returns... adoiiii
so freaky, yet so exhilirating. i think thats prob why im just working better in general this year (not perfect yet)... i realised why im doing it. i love it. i know im meant to be here.
Nic
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
do guys cry? damn straight they do
yeah... had an absolutely terrible week. but im getting over it... with God and some good friends. worst week of my life i think. but amazingly i dont feel as depressed as i should. yeah i wish things were better. but at least i can see God in this clearly. im sorry i cant share abt it. but i appreciate ur prayers. crappy week. but God is good. and he wipes away my tears (psalms 116).
there's always a silver lining. just got to look out for it.
written on 9 Nov 2006 (ie much later after this post)
looking back on that period of my life (cant believe it was so long ago)... i cant lie and say that that was fun to go through, or that it was great. it was crap, but at the same time good.
i realise now, looking back that God in all things really does work for the good of those who believe in him. from that starting point of crisis, he's prodded me back to the right direction again. he's still reworking me... (still a Work In Progress, for u accounting ppl reading this)... but i can honestly say, that i thank God for the trial. because it was in that trial, that i learnt more of who He was, and he taught me more of who I was:
his child
bought for an eternal price
so valued that he sent his one and only son to die for me
created and called for his purposes,
endowed with a hope and a future
freed to live by his grace, and most importantly
loved by Him
there's always a silver lining. just got to look out for it.
written on 9 Nov 2006 (ie much later after this post)
looking back on that period of my life (cant believe it was so long ago)... i cant lie and say that that was fun to go through, or that it was great. it was crap, but at the same time good.
i realise now, looking back that God in all things really does work for the good of those who believe in him. from that starting point of crisis, he's prodded me back to the right direction again. he's still reworking me... (still a Work In Progress, for u accounting ppl reading this)... but i can honestly say, that i thank God for the trial. because it was in that trial, that i learnt more of who He was, and he taught me more of who I was:
his child
bought for an eternal price
so valued that he sent his one and only son to die for me
created and called for his purposes,
endowed with a hope and a future
freed to live by his grace, and most importantly
loved by Him
Sunday, January 22, 2006
new life
i'm a sinner. i know that. i've sinned. i've not been a man of God to the ppl that matter in my life. i know that. i've not been a good Christian to my unsaved friends. i know that.
but i also know that the sinful nature is dead. sin has no power over me. i have nothing to fear, but fear itself. i know that my life story, will be a part of the universal story, written in revelations... that GOD wins. and i know that with my best friend, God, father, provider, security all in one... i can do all things, through Him who strengthens me.
it's amazing. i spent most of last yr in a depressive funk. why did there not seem to be purpose in my life? why did i stumble again and again? i was not a man of God last yr. i can say that with honesty. but i can also say that... i've learnt things. i can also say that i've recently broken some barriers in my personal life. i can say that i know the victory is won. i've realised that, as Paul writes in Romans... as he talks abt how he sins even though he doesnt want to, he realises that that sin is not a part of him. yes. i get tempted often. but the sinful nature is not a part of me. God has sanctified me. now i just have to rmb that when i get tempted to sin... when i get angry... when i get frustrated.
i've lived in guilt when i should live in freedom in Christ. i've let the Devil lie to me. lie to me that i'm worthless... that i'm weak... that i will always stumble. lies... that i listened to
No more. it's not abt me. it's abt God and what he's doin in me. i can resist temptation. its just sometimes i choose wrong. im not perfect. but i know i can resist it. temptation is no longer such an overbearing presence in my life... that previously i just sinned, because i saw no way out. but God provides a way out of temptation. i have the choice. he has sanctified me. he has made me new. its whether i choose to live in that new nature or the old. and i want to do the right thing for the God who made me who i am... his child... Nickolas Sin. theres none like him. i love Him. and he's teaching me to love myself. i've done things i never would have done in the past for fear of revealing to everyone my weaknesses. but it is in my weaknesses that His glory is revealed. it is in my humanity that His love and power shines through. and it is in submitting to him, no matter the sacrifice that entails... that He works in me... that breakthrough has happened. and im grateful. i've never cried so much. i love him.
God bless
but i also know that the sinful nature is dead. sin has no power over me. i have nothing to fear, but fear itself. i know that my life story, will be a part of the universal story, written in revelations... that GOD wins. and i know that with my best friend, God, father, provider, security all in one... i can do all things, through Him who strengthens me.
it's amazing. i spent most of last yr in a depressive funk. why did there not seem to be purpose in my life? why did i stumble again and again? i was not a man of God last yr. i can say that with honesty. but i can also say that... i've learnt things. i can also say that i've recently broken some barriers in my personal life. i can say that i know the victory is won. i've realised that, as Paul writes in Romans... as he talks abt how he sins even though he doesnt want to, he realises that that sin is not a part of him. yes. i get tempted often. but the sinful nature is not a part of me. God has sanctified me. now i just have to rmb that when i get tempted to sin... when i get angry... when i get frustrated.
i've lived in guilt when i should live in freedom in Christ. i've let the Devil lie to me. lie to me that i'm worthless... that i'm weak... that i will always stumble. lies... that i listened to
No more. it's not abt me. it's abt God and what he's doin in me. i can resist temptation. its just sometimes i choose wrong. im not perfect. but i know i can resist it. temptation is no longer such an overbearing presence in my life... that previously i just sinned, because i saw no way out. but God provides a way out of temptation. i have the choice. he has sanctified me. he has made me new. its whether i choose to live in that new nature or the old. and i want to do the right thing for the God who made me who i am... his child... Nickolas Sin. theres none like him. i love Him. and he's teaching me to love myself. i've done things i never would have done in the past for fear of revealing to everyone my weaknesses. but it is in my weaknesses that His glory is revealed. it is in my humanity that His love and power shines through. and it is in submitting to him, no matter the sacrifice that entails... that He works in me... that breakthrough has happened. and im grateful. i've never cried so much. i love him.
God bless
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