In between

Kind of feels like I'm in between a lot of things at the moment. 

After the Youth Leader's meeting yesterday, we decided that we needed to change attitudes in church, and it starts with us... or well in my case, with me. I find it easy to see where I need to change, but to actually change... that's a tad harder. 

For me the challenge is to move from self-sufficiency to trusting more... which is something i've always found hard to do, as I've generally well been up to most of the stuff life has thrown at me. Up until last year at least, when life threw some curveballs and I realised that I was going to run into the ground unless I trusted God and other people more. Still a work in progress.

• Can I trust God with my honours year?
• With my plan to go to YWAM next year (instead of starting work)
• Can I trust Him with my finances?
• Can I trust Him with my relationships?
• Can I trust Him to do something fruitful with my life? 

I posed these thoughts as questions, because to be honest, some days I wonder if I can trust. And other days I know God will come through. Some days really shake my faith in God, and yet on other days God is just so real. 

So why was this post titled 'In between'? 

I know I'm getting somewhere... but the journey's going to be difficult, and I wont make it on my own. But I know the endpoint's worthwhile. It's worth my life. 

And ultimately, I know I dont go alone, and that's a reason to smile.

Busyness and clarity

It's been a crazy few weeks. I've been forced to relive the joys of dissertation writing - thank God I've finally found a topic, and have a rough plan. The proposal's due on the 2nd of March, but in between tonight and then, there's the minor matter of the Employment Law 100% exam.

In the midst of this, I've had some time to just work out what I'm meant to do this and next year, and I think God's started some things in motion. More on that later on, but let's just say I'm pretty excited about 2010 (I know it's 2009). In the busyness, clarity seems to be emerging.

While it seems like 2009 will be spent (at least until October) in the Law Library, it isn't all bad. Life often brings you something beautiful when you least expect it. God loves keeping me on my toes. And that's probably a good thing =)