Set the world on fire

I've always struggled to reconcile the dreams I have, with the reality of who I am. After a certain age, you realise you're actually not perfect. Far from it, in fact, so how exactly will I make a positive difference with my life?

But thankfully, I've just realised that life isn't all about me - my strengths, my flaws, my successes and my failures. God's not looking at that.

He's looking for the desire and the willingness to set the world on fire (metaphorically). But most importantly, a heart after His.

So, while this old jar of clay is still sharp around the ages and scratched-up; I'll trust Him to hold it, shape it, and use it however He wants =)

Musing

There are days when I feel like a jerk.
There are days when I feel stretched to the limit by commitments.

I suspect both the above are related.

I've found myself behaving unexpectedly (in a bad way) in seemingly innocuous situations.
I've found myself trying to do the right thing when it's hard to. And often failing.

I suspect I need to deal with this.

I'm getting sick of being inconsistent. One moment smiling. The next moment tearing strips off someone and passing it off as humour. The next moment being a friend again.

The people I care about in my life definitely deserve better.

But it all starts somewhere doesn't it?

The Overdrivers =)

We're practicing for J-life camp tomorrow at Keith and Nat's place. I know it sounds a tad early (camp's in Easter), but hey why not?

Songs:

• Everyday (B)
• Deeper (E)
• Draw me close to you (B)
• From the inside out (B)
• All who are thirsty (G)

Pics of the band are upcoming, but thus far, we've got .net (our drums and bass section), as christened by Bryan, Bryan himself and Keith on the electrics, Mich as a singer, and me on the acoustic. Promises to be a time of fun and worship. Also promises to rock out the neighbours =)
Cant wait!

Back - the serious post

Wow... after some interesting holidays, I've finally come home. First, what I got up to in Singapore:

Evan and Gen's wedding

I think I've never seen a more touching wedding service. To Evan and Gen, congrats and I wish you all the best in the future. It was a great privilege to be there, and I wouldn't have missed it for the world. Don't forget to send the kids over in the future =)


I'll leave you both with this Irish blessing:

May the road rise to meet you,
May the wind be always at your back,
May sun shine warm upon your face,
May rain fall soft upon your fields and until we meet again,
May God hold you in the hallow of His Hand.

Catching up with old friends

Dennis - famously ultra-tight running shorts, supreme fitness, and a nice guy to boot =)

Steph, Mel, and Fiona - old friends who now work in Sg/Brunei


Justin, Tim, Kristine, Shawn, Dot, Joe, Bryan and Keith

Adeline - my old cell member and all-round awesome person - she owes us a visit sometime =P

Shawn - currently doing NS.

I guess the sad part of life is that it often pulls your friends away from you. People go away to work back home, serve in national service, or in my case, go on exchange. I really missed my friends when I was in Glasgow (though I did have a great time there). Nevertheless, I've realised that true friendships have a way of surviving and even growing even through separation.

So that's my key resolution for 2009 - to really be a good friend to those God has put in my life. To not get caught up in activity, but to instead just be who God wants me to be, one step at a time. As Evan said to me this year:

Don't do. Just be.