In between

Kind of feels like I'm in between a lot of things at the moment. 

After the Youth Leader's meeting yesterday, we decided that we needed to change attitudes in church, and it starts with us... or well in my case, with me. I find it easy to see where I need to change, but to actually change... that's a tad harder. 

For me the challenge is to move from self-sufficiency to trusting more... which is something i've always found hard to do, as I've generally well been up to most of the stuff life has thrown at me. Up until last year at least, when life threw some curveballs and I realised that I was going to run into the ground unless I trusted God and other people more. Still a work in progress.

• Can I trust God with my honours year?
• With my plan to go to YWAM next year (instead of starting work)
• Can I trust Him with my finances?
• Can I trust Him with my relationships?
• Can I trust Him to do something fruitful with my life? 

I posed these thoughts as questions, because to be honest, some days I wonder if I can trust. And other days I know God will come through. Some days really shake my faith in God, and yet on other days God is just so real. 

So why was this post titled 'In between'? 

I know I'm getting somewhere... but the journey's going to be difficult, and I wont make it on my own. But I know the endpoint's worthwhile. It's worth my life. 

And ultimately, I know I dont go alone, and that's a reason to smile.